Hello Adventurers
I have been wanting to do my hair for a couple of weeks now but kept putting it off. It’s been a rough couple weeks and I won’t lie, I have had so much stuff going on. It felt like things were going wrong in a domino effect, from trying to find a place to move into, my break up, then finding another place to move into which I am still in the process of doing. I have been at my new place for less than two months and I’m moving as soon as I get approved or find somewhere else to move if I don’t get approved where I have applied. School is hell, I feel like the years just keep going and I am not finishing. Right now I just need a rock to lean on, any rock. I never imagined my life being where it is at this point in my life but no one ever has it easy. According to my plan, I am suppose to be in my first year of law school right now. Have a nice handsome boyfriend to take me on adventures away from my busy life on weekends. Already have purchased my starter home, which would be perfectly decorated and enjoy the good times in life.
That is not how it is going. I find myself sitting in my bedroom alone nursing a broke heart with no friends, bills up my neck, homework stretching a mile away, and messy hair.
A year ago, I was one of the most happy optimistic people I knew. I had a wonderful relationship, friends who wanted to go out every weekend with me, and an adventure awaiting me at every corner. I was happy, and now trying to find that happy place seems harder than possible.
I am beautiful, I tell myself everyday. I am moving on from the year I had filled with pain and sleepless nights. The year I gained weight for the first time in my life from being someone else’s rock, and not being appreciated for it. I am turning this year around, that has started off with even more pain and heartache. I am getting my life in order again, to be the happy optimistic person I was a year ago. I am going to lose the weight I gained and fit in my size 0 clothing again. I will get myself a new rock to lean on, and for a while I will be the selfish one. I will start with one problem at a time. This week it’s my hair, I wanted to do something a little more fun. Start practicing for my birthday look, I ended up with this complicated look. Which I love, it probably highlight the many issues I am dealing with at the moment. It is solid, reminding me to be solid. I love everything about me, I love everything about my hair, I love everything about this look.
And to end on a positive note, I have a date this weekend.
XOXO
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